life

2011-12-26T23:40:00.001+08:00

i am whom seldom dare to risk to till so high. now even i myself scared of falling. however, i will be brave.

2011-08-17T20:43:00.002+08:00

i really hope i can help you. but i really dont know what can i say and what can i do... ... all i can is just give u encouragement without knowing anything.

2011-08-01T20:17:00.002+08:00

sometime i really envy those who come overseas to study student have the motivation and determination to score without their parent around. hahs... for some reason my parent have always been the obstacle for me to further in my studies. haiz... sometime i really wonder, am i staying with a family or just a hotel, that just for me to claim money and live. and nothing much more other than discouraging me to further improving in my studies. i know parent work hard for their kids. but then... ... mce will grow. really strong and independent. just need more time.

2011-08-01T20:16:00.001+08:00

sometime i myself also not even sure, is it a good thing to have many good friends whom are very smart around? hahs........

2011-07-26T21:27:00.002+08:00

without fail, i gone through many event, some of which i grew strong, and some just leave a scar

2011-06-24T18:54:00.003+08:00

what i really hate is when people do wrong, they never even apologise and behave as if i am in the wrong. WTH... shouldnt they atleast apologise, if not i am ao difficult to forgive them. is not i am not gentlemen, cause i know if i act nothing happen, my heart wont be happy, and i wont be true to them or myself. they seriously really get me into troble you know. because that day morning something really did happen and they still play. now all not my fault also my fault. this world is nonscense and i hate people who are faking so am i, if i am faking myself. recently i am really disappointed in so many people. haiz. but i know true friend will stand by me, and i will know who will.

2011-06-24T18:29:00.005+08:00

wooo.. internship finally end. my life can finally slow down alittle. actually when it end i actually quite happy, not because of lesser work, is because i feel that i have achieve and learnt really alot. eventhough my internship is somehow sometime stress but then when i think about it' atleast i learn more than other people. to be honest, i actually only feel that i only overwork myself once is when my colleague call me come at 830 and work till 8 pm with out breadfast( cause too rush. hahas) and lunch and dinner. that time is really.. WA... you know. cause i always feel, even if she dont agree with the same theory, she could atleast help, and not ignore, no matter what we are still same team and my boss colleague also agree with my logic cause my boss is on leave. and i did check the net that broth diffusion peameate will remain the same colour as the feed. but oo well... amazing i am not angry, i was just thinking maybe is a good chance to prove her, but she wouldnt listen. that why now i everything also call my boss to ask her, hahs! is also that time i realise that i can actually plan in my head in second. wow. i am really amaze by myself, cause she also never teach me how to do, just tell me need to do and walk off. is not i dont want to tell her to help me or tell my boss, is because i was thinking if i was her and people ignore my theory and carry on do and i was very confidence how would i react?hahas, and what for soil the relationship. and she really help me alot that why i cant really complain, must accept the way she is. hahas And sometime i automatically compare with other people, why other no need stay as late as me, but then i always feel is ok. cause i am really learning alot more. really alot. and i mean hands on. cause reading wise, i weekend also have to think how to improve my protocol, research and think. so confirm more then them, eventhough tired i am happy that i everyday dont have to do the same thing over and over again, atleast i get to analyse my own experiment. most important die or late also must eat breadfast, to prevent same senerio. sometime is not because i am late, is because i know if i come early, i also cant get to do my work, cause the place or equipment is being use, and i know around what timei can use.
to sum up what i learn: patience is the best flower in the garden of life! plan up to work/second. adapt to myself to other people fellings. think while doing. ( cause i would normally think and plan the rush through the work!) hahas. believe my boss hehe. and lastly is to plan my work really really well.
but i realise i really hate one thing. those people that dont know anything and just comment and comment is really irritating. so i just do and dont bother explaining to them, they are serious not asking they are like commenting. ooo well... work life. what to do.
not matter what, if i were to grade my internship. i will grade 9.5/10 cause i really got a good boss and co-boss (even though she sometime really... and she is oinh oinh)(her leadership skills also... torture me. ba!)but she is still great, and i really learn alot about science and myself. i believe i did my best, right mce. ;) ! yeah eventhough my co-boss is suppose to help me in my project, i believe i did my best to finish up most of my work on the day not matter how late so that my boss wont ask her help to do and complete. cause i thought she is really busy with her stuff.(true or not i really dont know, cause i always think if she's free she will come to help me asking). lastly thanks the people who had helped me in my internship, and is fun having fun colleague around. not all but most. =) the end

2011-06-21T00:20:00.002+08:00

to me now, i seriously have no idea what is family where member doesnt build on trust and too much paranormal stuff. mce will go insane soon, may be because i want revenge too much and i am really supressing it with lots of will power. i might not be able to hold it any longer. unless i have my revenge and say out all the things i want and do all i want and maybe even punching if not i may not be able to find the inner peace i am seeking. mce really couldnt supress it any long after 7 years now. really, really... if my tears really drop is really not i wanted.dont constrain me any more for i may not handle myself anymore

2011-06-21T00:17:00.002+08:00

i have lost really too much precious friend in my process of growing up, some of them i dont even have confident of reunite again. to be honest, i kinda miss them, some of them even brfore i argue with them or now cold war which dont look like one. now my house(just cause use the word family) have further condamn me. great, now sometime i myself is afraid of what i am thinking. i am really scared i may become violent sooner or later.

2011-06-05T03:34:00.005+08:00

for now the only way for me to feel better is to scold people without thinking of consequences. is like WTF... sorry. i really dont know how to express now. too many thing at the same time and i am totally tied up now! i know i suck.

2011-06-01T20:26:00.002+08:00

i went to the phone
stare
thinking what to say
pause
hand touch the phone
dream
wish and hope the norm
guilt-ridden
lie and smile, for the norm won't be the future
waiting for it to ring and connect to my heart.

2011-05-29T02:51:00.001+08:00

i really hate leaving you, but if your life will be wonderful and smiling atleast i know i wont regret.

2011-05-23T20:13:00.001+08:00

i have given u chance, but you didnt notice. but still, i will still help you solve your problem and make you happy. =D

2011-05-20T09:29:00.003+08:00

i really hope i can help everyone, but the main thing is that i cant clique with everyone. that why i cant help you not i dont want. no doubt i want to be a validator but i have much more to learn.

2011-05-18T09:03:00.002+08:00

if only, that time i tell u everything from in to out. hahas. i wonder what will happen? oo well. hahas. after now, i guess i wont harp over it again. cause i know your memory space is limited now. hahas. when you are back i will give you a warmest wellcome and from then on, let us persue our dreams! but i kinda doubt lots of things. hahas. morning !!!

2011-05-05T13:49:00.002+08:00

可惜让你笑，让你开心的人不是我。。。。。。突然当我想起这句话，不知不觉又点辛酸的感觉，有点泪于心连的伤感。

2011-05-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

i may not be a great counsilor as before and maybe not as good as before to solve all my emotions encounter but then i believe i still can make u all smile from your heart and try to give opinions that sootes your heart and what your heart think. so why not just share since this blog not many people already know this blog. =) if u know me you can just email me or call me. i am more than happy to listen.

2011-04-29T14:49:00.001+08:00

to be honest i know what i am doing i right. just that i dont feel that i am doing the right thing to myself.

2011-04-28T13:44:00.000+08:00

i miss the shy
i miss the night
i miss the creator of my impression

2011-04-28T12:16:00.003+08:00

i have no idea what i doing

2011-04-28T12:16:00.001+08:00

i have no idea what i doing

2011-04-21T14:02:00.001+08:00

can spend sometime to understand me, i know it will take time but can just continuing try... i know i can, but not so fast can can...

2011-04-19T13:50:00.001+08:00

long time since words affect me this much... make me kinda from like to hate u

2011-04-17T23:33:00.002+08:00

i have yet again no idea what i want. i need the help yet i know you wont render me the need i want. yet i only told you. haiz... atleast this time round i will be grateful that i can still help, cause i know the worst thing is when you cant do anything. work hard... ... there will be people beside you to help you

2011-04-12T18:39:00.001+08:00

so feel so strong yet so weird. what are words???? dont ask me, i seriously dont event understand them

2011-04-12T17:56:00.000+08:00

there is so much i wanted to tell you!!! =)

2011-04-11T13:42:00.001+08:00

i feel the pain deep down in my heart when i finally realise that i cant help you anymore... T.T i just hope that u dont give up and really realise that you are who you are. and there will be people for you when you need them

2011-04-08T14:35:00.002+08:00

to be honest i have no confident to make anyone smile deeply from the bottom of the heart cause i myself also not sure if i can make myself smile from the bottom of my heart or just trying to cover up something. hahas.............. to me what's life? till now i still serious no idea. to strive? to win? to love? to be loved? to help others? or should i just be happen that atleast i am smiling everyday. mce ar mce... ... you cant evenknow yourself how are you going to help other people hahs!!!

2011-03-29T13:25:00.001+08:00

if i were to told u i miss you, will u believe? hahs....

2011-03-23T20:19:00.000+08:00

i know i did my best, but i will try harder.

2011-03-23T11:17:00.001+08:00

if life is to be fun, i guess some things have to change. =) jia you.

2011-03-23T11:15:00.003+08:00

i hope u understand, i hate the feeling of one sided. we are still friends alright =) hahas. just that i wanna feel at least appreciated. if not what's the point of being friends. i believe i done my best, isnt it.

sweet and simple

2011-03-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

she is sweet

when she smile

she is adorable

when she is simple

yet the story is hardly sweet and simple

for the elements of the world

for known complicated and mysterious

mcenroe ng

2011-03-20T17:02:00.000+08:00

why does i sign everytime i look at my sms?

2011-03-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

is time i try out new things, let see if i can manage.!! hahas .. is a heavy gamble though.. hahas!

2011-03-16T13:36:00.001+08:00

love have the power to allow me to succeed and detrimental power. but even without, i know i can still struggle/.... mce ar mce... haiz

2011-03-15T23:40:00.001+08:00

i will help you and i guess my probably my last advice. i hope u take it to heart. i dont wish your potential go to waste.. haiz. but u kinda disappoint me too deep.

2011-03-14T15:10:00.001+08:00

you know i have so much thing to tell you .... yet i ... i get if tsunami really come i will sms you... let me say finish k... i know u will.. i hope. d

2011-03-09T09:04:00.001+08:00

mce ar mce... your bain dont think too much' need to focus on your internship. work hard and jia you =) JIA YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! believe ^.^

2011-02-25T14:46:00.003+08:00

you seriously need to open up, if not is impossible to help u even if in the dark.... i can help you but u need to trust me. even if u say i am good but i am still not that good. hahs ....

exam coming le !! =) Jia you mce... i believe u can do it de.. hahas .... i will be myself, i say it to myself le. =)

2011-02-24T12:03:00.001+08:00

still beautiful =)

2011-02-18T14:16:00.001+08:00

mcenroe is tired

2011-02-18T09:40:00.000+08:00

会有点想。。。。

2011-02-16T19:22:00.002+08:00

i really have no idea what am i doing and if what i doing is right. in the past i will always think, what's the responsibility i have to carry and what will be the consequence. but then, now.. i am a little tired. cause if i always goes at what i should do, slowly it will cause lots of trouble. then i go by what i want to do. well this solve whole lots of trouble then it back to the result... i analyse it, i may not be able to handle the consequence then i am jam again.

now i feel that pining high hope on people may not be a good choice or trusting them just because of my feeling. cause normally i would analyse before trusting. but this time i totally let my feeling over-rule me... ooo well... i am mcenroe after all....

2011-02-14T11:13:00.001+08:00

i will do my best to help you but what happen next will be up to you ya.. hahas.

2011-02-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

i dont want to care le...

2011-02-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

want to scold you yet, dont know how to say. hahs! want to tell you but feel is just not right... ... i feel like running a test on you which doesnt happen naturally but feel is unfair to you. wanna ask you but i know the answer wont be true then what's the point.

2011-02-05T02:37:00.002+08:00

why wont u believe me u didnt change at all... u have been repeating the situation and i only been repeating my sentence. haha! but still happy u are happy. glad that u are happy, so i dont have to spend effort, got to prepare for test now...

2011-01-25T21:39:00.001+08:00

everyone lets jia you

2011-01-23T22:27:00.001+08:00

you are just beautidul just the way you are

2011-01-20T01:44:00.001+08:00

sometime when your dreams lead astray, the only thing that u will do is sign..... hmm.. =) hope everyone is happy.

2011-01-16T21:18:00.001+08:00

mcernoe.. work hard .. i know you can. i lost really alot of things.........................

2011-01-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

hmm ... i guess i have to agree to my uncle that nothing stays forever, i remember i used to debate with him so long. hahs. d. i dare to say i really did do my best to cherish you and squeeze out all my left over time just to talk to you, maybe it just happen that u are really not free. i guess is all left up to you, now i shall try my best for my other friends and do my best for them. to you months may mean nothing but to me, is has been really long to see you smile maybe i am not u expect any more, but trust me if time will to reverse again theres really not much things i can do at that time, is just the consequence are to heavy for me to carry. for long, so long... i trust me, to trust you

2011-01-11T21:11:00.001+08:00

i will always be happy, but miss is another feeling.... .. . . . . . .. . . . . . . .

2011-01-11T21:03:00.001+08:00

why can you ask me face to face, or atleast voice to voice. why must be words and words.... haizz....................................................................................................................................................

........................................................................................................................why do i keep feeling that i suck...

2011-01-11T15:13:00.004+08:00

people find you u ok i find u, u sure not free... hahs. think of this dont know want to laugh or sad. now near near already so difficult to meet next time far far i guess WA!!! unbelievable. last time sms u got reply already so rare now ask u find a time to meet me WA.... dont want to think already. should really start from 0? haiz... i really also dont know. i can confirm leave it as it is confirm will become negative and maybe permanent status forever. now the weather is like the wind blowing to ask me T.T the cloud saying dont worry i will hide for you. maybe what mother nature is really asking me is to cry for this person and smile cause atleast she give you the memories and start all over. but start all over is it really possible... hahas really easier said than done.

2011-01-09T14:19:00.001+08:00

我已经尽量用很多是来麻醉自己了，可是还是念念不忘我么的感情。d ar d ar, 我的最后一句话还没讲完。加油吧。。。！我们两个。=)

2011-01-09T14:18:00.001+08:00

testing testing

2011-01-04T19:49:00.001+08:00

i already dont know what i doining is right or wrong. but atleast give me support ok....at least as a friend is really trusted friend can. d a

2011-01-03T19:19:00.002+08:00

我子想和你面对面地谈。。。真的不可能吗。一路顺风，当有什么困难记得想起我，我愿意当那批凤岗。加油吧

2011-01-02T21:05:00.002+08:00

my new year resolutions: i only have one is just to not lost anything precious to me. that's all.
if there's god, i will really pray for you to bless and teach me. so that i wont lost anything...

2011-01-02T21:03:00.002+08:00

i have done something my heart will never do... history? will it happen again...? i given up on thinking about it. just hope i wont lost anything... ... atleast i still can wish

2011-01-02T18:34:00.001+08:00

for some reason my brain dont tally with my heart... just last try... i just got a feeling if i really let go... the history will sure to repeat itself... and that's really that's it ...

2010-12-29T00:57:00.002+08:00

相信自己相信我，
我一定能让你在笑起来。虽然我经历了很多，不过我已经在控制我自己在有些反面不变了。为什么就不能再认识多一次能？

2010-12-28T10:48:00.002+08:00

我已经很尽力然你明白我了。。。可是你的不懂于终真的让我特别累。也只能怪我，当时真的想太多了。。。我现在什么都不想做了，很希望你能做点事。不然就这样吧。。。你何况也不是想很多吗。。。?

2010-12-27T22:02:00.002+08:00

i am really afraid... ... i scared if i dont handle well i might really lose something precious to me. this day come too soon, atleast tell me what u think before really go off...

2010-12-27T09:55:00.003+08:00

guess i will have to get all busy again, my goal failed... i wasnt able to socialise with friend which i intend to interact during my break, now i have to rush rush rush again... somehow i really hate it when people tell me no, cannot with out supporting reasons

2010-12-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

when waves splash and retreat,
when the sun drop amd rise,
when the cold become colder,
when the hot become hotter,
misses freezes to hatred,
hatred combust to wish,
for a wish not to be said,
yet hope to be known.

hidding may not be wise,
yet is a hope to last,
last may not last,
yet is a chance to survive,
for the wish to survie,
atleast there's still a hope to pin
for it to be discover.

2010-12-26T23:10:00.002+08:00

should he give up or should not ... he dont want but will it benefit the girl and himself?he dont hate her but miss her ..

2010-12-26T17:52:00.001+08:00

i just dont like when no one appreciate my effort after i spent so much effort on you ... i am not a saint neither am i gentlemen... i really hope u appreciate me.. i love you...

2010-12-26T02:28:00.002+08:00

for some reason i am feeling sad now... my tears seem like going to drop any time. the one i spend the most effort doing, the first to make finish, the one i use the most feeling to write, the one i spend the most time... all gone... i guess i will just keep the one that can last and the other... ... let it go ba..mce ar mce. i finally understand the meaning the truth always hurt and everything have an end. often people say the end is the new begining but then... i l u. i will never forget... the feeling second time........................................................... i hate myself..

2010-12-22T12:03:00.002+08:00

now i wont care if i will lose you or not... cause event i try my best to figure out the best way, i still wont work out.... so what for still trying to fingure different routes and ways where the opposite wont appreciate and understand ... i will just do what i think is right, if i will to lose you it will just mean i will have to regret.

2010-12-20T19:48:00.002+08:00

sometime people ask me questions that i seriously dont know how to answer... sometime i felt that my way of thinking is too extreme and is not even right for human to have this kind of thought. sometime i just want to keep things to myself... ... actually i kind of know friendships most of my friendship wont actually last long cause i am keeping too much things, but the main thing is that i seriously dont know how to bring up to you and sometime the consequense i dont even dare to think about it. but when things go wrong, i always want to salvage. however in the end it never work out... i really dont want to lose you all but if i really got no choice then ... sometime i guess maybe i may not even worth your friend.. when u sad u got other friends with u, when i give u my true opinion u dont take it in heart... then what's the point might as well... if got a choice i really to hold ur hand and support you... is just my attitude...

2010-12-13T18:14:00.001+08:00

my emotion is coming back ... for some reasons i dont know why is it getting harder aqnd harder to suppress ....

2010-12-11T22:22:00.000+08:00

study study study .. aiyoyo.. nothing go in my head ...

2010-12-05T22:14:00.002+08:00

有时候，我真的觉得自己超烂。。。嗨。。。

2010-12-03T18:02:00.003+08:00

this is what happen when you lost ... u get humiliated by people.... that's why i never wanted to lose and all because of last sem ... why am i so emotionally caught up? if not i wouldnt have to suffer this fate...if only you didnt quarrel with me and still as close as we used to.. atleast i can still believe that there is still some friends that can share and help me... yet ... now is near impossible for me to believe anymore.. eventhough i still want to play with you... but ... haiz... i just cant get out of my mind i guessyou also agree that now is not like the pass anymore.. so mce work hard like u use to so that you wont suffer the same humilliation again ... really sorry tis not that i dont want to hear you and help you ... is just that i myself isnt as strong anymore.... but is just that i dont have time anymore... but then i will still help you as lmuch as i can ... but this time only those that i a close too i guess.... but then maybe i am also just nothing

2010-12-02T11:59:00.002+08:00

omg .... now here come all the obstacles at one go ... i really scared i cant handle it well again and end up like last sem ... but now i know that my problems cant depend on anyone ... since i learnt it the tough and rough way last sem .... but then i am really scared... i am really not ready for alot of things.....

2010-11-26T18:12:00.002+08:00

i hope i am not disappointed in you for what i think who you are... i know you wont to accept my help but still be strong ... ...

2010-11-24T09:14:00.001+08:00

how i wish i can touch u now... sit down and chat over a cup of tea and play with you.... seems that time reaky dont allow me to do a lot of things

2010-11-21T02:10:00.002+08:00

i only left my memory for you... hope nothing will take it aways... people always say memories are the only thing that will last but i scared it will gone like the wind without me knowing. good or bad memories i just want to treasure .... really... jjust dearly

2010-11-20T20:06:00.001+08:00

笑一笑吧。。。加油。。。我不想再猜，连关心别人原来也会累。

2010-11-15T11:57:00.001+08:00

mcenroe jia you .... just endure thru the mile and please be motivated... remember depend on yourself ... please remember and not repeat the mistake from last sem or u might as well go die... please.... come on ...!!!

2010-11-08T00:23:00.002+08:00

wow.. long time seems i talk to an elderly and actually chat with him for more then 1 hours... somehow i kind of motivated by him... maybe because he has similar situation as me so kind of make me feel i am not too alone.. but when i kind of think of it ...his way of doing is so long ago and that may work where mine maybe afterall not as easy to handle as him. but still i am happy that i still able to make him drop tears of joy and happiness... i really hope that i create a corner of solace for him... no matter what i still have to stand up and stop escape from the reality .... most importantly believe ...

2010-11-01T19:19:00.002+08:00

i just hope to numb myself... i know i am stupid but then i really have no idea what i want. apart from my childishness, strong side of me, multi tasking side of me and hadworking side of me there is actually another side of me you know... strong in mind doesnt mean i am good in heart also you all know......... no matter what there's still the saying many hurdles make a mighty knight fall. and emotion is the biggest enemy even for the all-mighty conqurer.

2010-10-31T22:29:00.000+08:00

busy busy life...

2010-10-23T23:56:00.001+08:00

i am really sick and tired of losing ... and is just not me to push every thing to destiny. ,uch less something that i haven prove to myself yet ...

2010-10-19T15:52:00.001+08:00

i am not ok now...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-10-19T15:51:00.001+08:00

somehow your concern and care let me feel disgusted...arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr............................... can i just scold u shut up ..... i kind of getting to hate u now

2010-10-19T15:42:00.006+08:00

我好烦。。。快要失控。。。我开始觉得你好烦。我真的好想骂你，可是我又不可能以我的感情来骂你。。。请别让我觉的你好假。。。你让我很想珍惜你，不果也很想绝交我们这段的友情。。。

2010-10-12T11:59:00.002+08:00

my first time gathering so much courage just to send one message ... boo... bleh.....

2010-10-12T11:51:00.002+08:00

finally blog...recently really busy and really learn alot of things... i also learn how fast a person can change just a mere 4 year... i didnt expect someone who use to be my good friend once will change his character so much ... well but atleast not too worst... i work!! hahas ... and i really did learnt alot of things about food, people and other more... well didnt have much time to play though. eventhough i did expect someone to ask me out but she didn't. kind of disappointing .. haiz ... i would gladly take my time off... this friday buffet and bbq and saturday steamboat .. omg eat till i burst man.. hahas.but maybe i will select and only go for a few... i promise myself not to teach but still i started teaching again.. got to stop myself ...

deffany

2010-10-02T22:31:00.003+08:00

actually i wanted to tell you this in person... but then i dont really think i have the chance.. hahas ... actually i really want to thank you. for really letting me know who i am and for finding back who i really am. i guess you must find me troublesome and irritating now right? you know after some time when i got the chance to get close to you, troubles started dashing to me you know, my family(needless to say), social, and my academy is starting to waver. then i started to feel to alone and dont want other people to see the weak side of me. so i really wanted to rely my emotional burden on you and hope u can give me the support i want. but i guess i overdependent on you, somehow i feel that you started to distance away from me may be because we just have a fight and my trouble comes soon after that. then my mind couldn't think of anyone else, cause you are the only close friend i know that no need to take exams and maybe show u the the other side of me. day by day pass i guess u know what happen i could handle it well anymore maybe because i really want some one to rely on and my academy grade really started to go down. but then this really let me learn a lesson, i know my exams this time round will really sux but still... i started to ask my self where is the mcenroe that used to be strong in mind and body who can handle everything by himself, and since when does he need to rely on other people. why is he getting so weak now. i guess i couldnt blame other people why will i score so bad now, cause i wanted to rely on other people too much... i should just continue my journey with a strong goal in mind and never give up...(cause at a point of time i really give up for a while)... now i have return and learn never to rely on other people but oneself to be who you really are... but then you are a really great friend(cause you really make me smile from my bottom of my heart)... do you also think so deffany? hahas ... to be honest i still like the past deffany when she had no make up on and say what she want with me... or maybe i did really didn't understand you. =) you must be angry or think why i never tell you on the sms or call you... to let people know the weak side of me really takes up alot of courage and really need supper lot of time. when all the other people see is always the strong smart proud childish side of me.

2010-09-30T23:28:00.001+08:00

i thought bond need to treasure so that it could be lasting or i should just leave it as it is? or i should clear up misunderstanding ... too chom liao ... if i got time i really will try to treasure but not when i am doing so many things now ... then one person only is really difficult.

2010-09-25T22:35:00.001+08:00

will you celebrate with me for my birthday? i know i shouldnt expect anything from you but i hope you will automatic... ... maybe i am even day dreaming

2010-09-24T13:15:00.001+08:00

我现在开始觉得好累啊。。。忙来忙去。。。很想简简单单生活一下。。。

2010-09-22T13:27:00.002+08:00

i hope you remember the purple star necklace that u once like when we went shopping together, i scout for it for very very long still cant find ... i really feel like giving up soon. but i know you wll be happy. since quite some time since i talk to you but why do i feel that u have change a little, is that really you?

2010-09-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

i shall put down my pride for just this time once and do what i can..... but please i need some luck

2010-09-20T00:10:00.002+08:00

i know by doing this i will regret... my mind told me not to do but my heart keep saying... just do it... that why i decided to do... i really hope u both treasure the chance . for i dont want you all to regret... eventhough i now already started to regret... hope you all best of luck ... but seriously i sometime really dont like to be good guy ...

2010-09-19T10:04:00.001+08:00

要不是你在避开我，要不然就是天注定我不能和你出去。我真的没什么时间在这假期里。